donna38516

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 13:02:07 GMT

so much has changed since i last updated..ive changed jobs..ive learned things..LMAO FUNNY ASS THINGS!!! ive learned that im to fucking good to let some guy make me think im not good enough..learned that i fucking beautiful..yea i might not be a fucking twig..but i also dont want to be a twig..i feel fucking great..i hope you read this..i hope you sit at home and say to yourelf damn..will you? fuck no you only care about your fucking self..which btw is utterly disappointing..see shit happened but i had respect for you..thought highly of you..not now though..now scum has more respect from me..do you care? not a bit but guess what one day you will and no one will be there..you had it and you lost it..so enjoy what you now have..cause thats as good as it will get for you

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 12:37:41 GMT

miss donna has a flipping jobby job. hehe. its great. it sux cause its work but i love it. everyone i work with is great. so fucking nice and nice..lol. was alittle scared about training as a server buuut now im starting to think that i just might beable to do it. lol. being a hostess though is so much better. i just dont make tips..well sometimes we do but not like servers. blaaah my head hurts a wee bit.

fucking HATE people who see things onesided

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:39:43 GMT

well i cant explain how things are going right now. ive got so many people pissed off at me..but you kno what. whatever..they dont see me. they dont kno me. they think they kno so much about the person i am. that im so uncaring and selfish. that whatever why am i going to work myself into a tearful night for them. why do i let them have that kind of power? why because i care to fucking much..thats my problem. i let anyone in and i care for them. well that donna is about 5 minutes from disappearing. im so fucking selfish right? yea thats me. selfish cold hearted bitch. but hey if thats what you want to believe..than do it. i don't care anymore. if thats who you think i am than you never knew me at all. but hey thats your bad..you never took the time to get to know me. you wanted what you wanted and when you got it it was all over. am i bitter? nah..its life. im partly to blame. i let you play your games. you want me to look like the bad guy. i can play the part i guess. but just remember you drove me away. i wanted to be there..i wanted you..the real you but i guess i didnt get to kno that side huh? you can blame me if you want..it doesnt bother me..i just want this shit to be over with. i didnt do what i did to hurt you. i did what i did to help me. i was crying out to you to help me and you just looked at me and turned away. do you kno how hard it is. to ask someone else for help. how hard it is to see you happy. knoing that nothing i ever said to you meant a damn thing. knoing that i didnt mean anything to you. it stings. knoing that the person i am will never be accepted. in your eyes ima monster. you look at me and you see nothing. you see all my flaws but refuse to see any of my strong points. you wanted a barbie but guess what barbie isnt real. do you even relize how fucked in the head i let you make me? do you care? doubt it. you refused to let me in..well babe thats your problem. you cant expect someone to live like that do you? im not gonna lie and say i dont miss the good times. i do. but when i weigh them with the bad.. its not pretty. you had your chance to get out and you chose not to take it. but you want me to suffer..you want to make me miserable rememer..your words not mine. but im the bad guy. sooo what does it matter. it really doesnt anymore. i love myself. i love everything about me. im not letting you hurt me anymore. yea i have my flaws but im working on them.. you cant even tell. you see me as this person...but guess what that person you saw me as was a person you helped create. our faults werent all you. it was me too. but see i can be "man" enough to admit it. whereas you refuse to accept your role in it all. but hey whatever.. go live your life. im taking mine by the horns and im gonna live the fuck out of it. you say you quite shit but you kno what you shouldnt have let yourself go there to begin with. i love you all..i really do.. but i felt so judged. i couldnt be myself with any of you. well i could with one of you..but she hates me now. do i blame her..no. i didnt want to leave like this. on such bad terms. wanted to beable to show you me. without your judging eyes looking down on me. you refused to open your mind. only want to see what you believe. maybe im the disillusioned. all you had to do was get to me...even after my threats you refused to take a look. blah im out. im sick of this. im following my heart. where ever it takes me its gonna be a new lesson. and im up to be taught.

yea so like yea

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 00:09:54 GMT

wow i havent been on my journal in a long while. im such a fucking cheater..im sorry livejournal myspace is funner..blah blah blah fucking blah... anyhoozer...yea so like im taking ged courses online. greatness..fucking was moved up to advanced english and reading which totally fucking kicks ass and sux at the same time. lol. got a fucking biza day tomorrow.. gotta go to social sercurity and family services to try to get alyssa on medicad.. fun fun fun. then it will be off to joes providing i have the time which i should since ima leaving here at 9. its weird man when i first moved over here like NOOOOO one was even remotely interested which is all good for me and what not now i am getting hit on left and right. its like what the fuck dudes. idk maybe its my renewed confidence in myself and my over all "look". whatever..its usually 40 y/o men thats hitting on me..i think its honestly my big fucking boobs... totally had my neighbor fucking staring me down reading my t-shirt.. then hes like without looking at my face wanna go get a drink with me? what you think ima fuck you or something? please you piece of fucking shit im not a fucking whore. lol. motherfucker's got a 16 y/o daughter..and its not like i look my age. i look 18ish. soooo motherfucker probley some perv. ewwwie. no fucking thanx. but there is this one dude.. omg god he is finnne. totally seems like a real chill dude. he's 35 but he looks 23ish. skater who looks like a surfer..also known as woodpusher.. thats his nickname. but i just want to be his friend. just chill together and what not. donna aint having none of the sex. fuck that. dont even remotely want to deal with the drama bullshit that brings. you horny go buy yourself a fucking porno and spank your monkey...its that easy.. heres some pics..enjoy biotches..lol. kissy goo goo

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 02:17:31 GMT

things are crazy now. i cant explain. dont really feel like explaining. i feel like such a different person but at the same time i dont. idk. im weird.i feel like i look different but i dont. people look at me different. ahhh this world is so screwed up. sipping on some ice coffee. mmmmmmmm. love it, gosh jeez whiz..what cheese whiz..where. lol. ima a loony toon.sooooo. yeah.

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 16:38:18 GMT

went to kaleenas place friday night. some of her bf's friends came over. then we went to this bar called connections. it was great. biker bar played rap music just about all night. funny shit. chuck's friends bought me and kaleena our drinks so got me a free drunken night. lol. saw some of my old buddies. god were have gotten old. lmao then we went back to kaleenas place and chilled til we all passed out. woke up saturday and just hung out with everyone watched some movies and shit. then it was time to go buybeer and food for the "party". did you kno a lighter can explode from being dropped on the floor? i didnt til i saw it. lol. got pictures...not alot. photobucket is being gay telling me i have to many...grrr so i cant put all of them up. pisses me off. i think i have to create a new yahoo email and then a new photobucket thingy. ahhhhh it was so great spending an entire weekend with kaleena. i miss her so much. its funny i thought it might be weird..you kno like we might have changed so much that we dont click anymore...no not the case. we chilled just like the good old days. what was weird though was being around all of chuck's friends. there was literally only 5 girls there this whole weekend. compared to like the 20 guys there. lol. so odd. rowdy rowdy boys. hilarious as fuck though. ok ima go now. ahhhh i need to pee

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 00:42:05 GMT

im happy we talked last night. it meant so much to me. you're my girl b. nothing will ever change that. yeah for a bit we aint gonna see eachother. but im still here for you. im still here for you to talk to...about anything. you know me. i lefted your brother not you. joe and i...where to begin. we dont click. thinking back there was never really a spark. just misplaced feeling and sex. did we ever actually love eachother? looking back i dont think we did. i know we care for eachother though. but whatever. im in a happy place now. not always happy... i miss you and the fun times we had. but i know you as a friend and my friends that i love will always be in my life. you're always going to be with me. when you turn 21 i will be there drinking it up with you. like i told you before. you have a beautiful soul. you arent full of hate b. you're full of love. you love many and care deeply.

hmmm

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 04:21:03 GMT

i dont know what to say. things have changed so much since i last updated. ahhh. im at peace. calmed. idk. i hate that im hurting the ones i love but at the same time this is something i need to do. i know no one understands that. its just something that i have to do. wait i said that already. lol. laughter. its weird not being there with you. i hate im hurting you. you're like my best friend. you will always be my little my sister. i just hope one day this will make sense to you. i dont think you hate me but i know you're mad. i can feel it. but i understand. even though this isnt the biggest shock. i know its still probley one of the biggest blows. im sorry you have gotten caught up in this. i know one day we will have more fun. til that day comes i hope you know. i love you and always will. in my heart i know this is the right thing for me. i want to change for the better. i want the life of my dreams. i know i have to work hard and im finally ready. yeah i have lots to figure out but i have the plans to make this shit happen. im not letting anything stand in my way. not even my low self esteem can stop me now. im willing to figure out

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 14:38:43 GMT

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Sun, 19 Jun 2005 00:47:59 GMT

Im flipping excited bro. Im going to Don Pablos with Danielle, Cara and Anna. This is going to be spiffy! but i have a bit on my mind that i feel like rambling about...
well first off i was talking to banana and we had a serious convo. I feel like crying now. Poor Poor B. I think she needs to get out more, and back to her old self.
Another thing. People are so fake its funny and at the same time makes me wanna shoot the person.
Last I hate ungreatful people, who talk about other ungreatful people... ok hypocrits, and ungreatful people yes. It's bugging the flip out of me!
K Im so happy about tongight, this is going to be fun man!

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 00:45:39 GMT

i cant wait til saturday. going to don pablos again and im getting trashed. wooohoooooo for me

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 00:55:14 GMT

well now i really did slack off. woohooo todays my birthday. im a whole 22 now. danng im special. i have taken some many pictures its unreal i have to post some more up here. ive been addicted to myspace lately though. how sad is that. lol. anywaysssss. omg tv sux so bad. why isnt there anything good on. flipping some gay ass shows about crap. AHHHHH im so annoyed with it. okay well cya laters

wooopie

Mon, 30 May 2005 13:29:44 GMT

i havent updated in a flipping while. im slacking. uhhh im over at b's place. geeez im bored i need a cigerette but i am trying to quite..slowly. lol i still smoke but i do want to quite...its just to damn expensive these days to kill yourself. again im kidding but you know that already..right. oh pacheeseits. dododo. ok well i out just wabted to update and you know. stuff.

Sun, 15 May 2005 22:37:00 GMT

im here at my parents house. my parents took us out to eat at sam selters. i ordered a blue by you. omg it was soooo good. its some sort of jimmy buffett inspired margarita. then i had a long island ice tea and omg it was so nasty. so not what it was suppose to taste like. ahhhh.

Sat, 14 May 2005 04:09:50 GMT

yo peeples im over here at bananas house chillin'. i have a migraine. ouch it hurts bad. so whats new with all of you folks? well i best be going now. laters.

Fri, 13 May 2005 00:53:22 GMT

Here Banana this is my crazy grannie... don't let her little grannie smile fool you..she is a certified wack a do

Fri, 13 May 2005 00:48:41 GMT

Alyssa.

Fri, 13 May 2005 00:46:45 GMT

My sister Barbara

Tony, my brother Mike, Theresa, and Tina

Tony, my brother Skip, my brother Matt and my dad
My brother Mike

Thu, 12 May 2005 13:45:03 GMT

Ahhh. Last night was so weird. My grandma called 911 and asked them if they could come pick her up. She said she was having pains in her chest and stomach. So when they got there she walks out and just climbs into the ambulance. She then tells my mom "ok i hope i see you guys later" omg shes a flipping loonie. Last friday she tryed to fight my mom over their dog. Then when my mom went outside to smoke a cigerette she tryed to lock her out well my mom heard her messing with the door so my mom went in and was all what are you doing. My grandma then tells her that shes locking her door cause this is her house...then called the cops on my mom. Tells the 911 operator that shes at this house that shows movies and a lady (my mom) came here and now she wont leave. Im afraid of what she might do...she's bigger than me. Then when the cops get there she tells them that my mom was trying to steal the dog. My mom was in her nightgown for one...for two its her dog. wacky wacky family. lol. my dad made reservations at sam seltzers on sunday. he wants me to go for mothers day. since he worked last sunday and i was camping... i told him i would go. idk i feel bad that we dont have a realationship like most fathers and daughters do. But then its cause of him we dont. He's dieing... idk before i thought it was all in his head and what not but i can actually see it now. Chemo is taking its toll on him. It makes me feel bad that I don't feel any sadness towards all the shit going on. I mean I dislike the way my father is...how he raised me and what not. But i still love him cause he's my dad. I don't think Joe understands that. I talk crap about him and he has screwed us over many times but in the end i wouldn't be here without him. idk im rambling on and on now so i will just leave now.

Wed, 11 May 2005 01:47:44 GMT

today was a very good day. im not exactly sure why but it was. at least the biggest part of it was. AHHHH!!! im sooo bored right now. i have to wash dishes...yuck. i hate washing dishes. but anyways. i have no clue what else to say so laters.

Mon, 09 May 2005 22:18:00 GMT

going over the howard franklin bridge

found this one another site....rare double rainbow....soooo prettiful

mmmmmmmmm fish

northern lights

northern lights again...very spiffy looking if you ask me

the pier at fort desoto

alyssa looks so ummm well you know.. i love my baby
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Mon, 09 May 2005 04:32:24 GMT

its sad that i can figure out how to put pics on here but i cant get me a little photo by my name...sniffle sniffle

Pictures of Our Weekend............

Mon, 09 May 2005 04:26:26 GMT

A boat passing the beach at Fort DeSoto.

A pic. from another site..i thought it was beautiful so yeah

Another one from the same site

These are actual places

On top of the Fort at Fort Desoto

The guys and their fish

My baby

The Skyway Bridge

The Littlest Mermaids

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Mon, 09 May 2005 04:12:05 GMT

Fun...Fun...Fun...man im so happy these pics are up

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Mon, 09 May 2005 04:09:03 GMT

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